Knowing how much I need some exercise to deal with my PMS moodiness and general negativity as it comes up, but PMS homeopathy is helping. I heard from R who left a msg and said he'd like to talk to me BUT he should probably MOVE ON and LEAVE ME ALONE.  I don't know why it was like a regressing for me in the overcoming the breakup.  Anyway it was hard not to call back, but I did get out my "It's called a breakup because it's broken" book and that cheered me on. I went to a 60 year sobriety bday party Saturday and ran into some of my exbf's aquaintances and it brought up a lot - a year since our breakup and people still ask me about him!  I said "we didn't remain friends ,but I keep him in prayer".  I think there is a lot of gossip I didn't participate in at the meeting place that the bday boy (at 94) is affiliated with.  I am still associated with him, I suppose I did disappear from around that meeting place for a long time.  I felt like I should go back to those I admire and just found clicks and drama to kind of suck the vitality out of me.  Guard myself and maybe only go if I have to.  I told a couple people I'd probably show up sometime soon anyway we'll see. So I'm hoping to really work out as I think I really need to get my body moving and some fat on me is sort of depressing me!  Anyway I have been fighting down a cold but I think the natural medicine sort of kicked it out.  So the gym is calling for me to get on sweats and tennis shoes and do the yoga class and get on the stairmaster.  Seeing my body in a full length mirror was really hard as my formerly awesome shape when I was a dancer has really slipped.  Anyway I know I am much more than that, but that in physical fitness how much better I'll handle stress. Work was kind of painful today as I just felt not so stress-less as I've been here almost 2 months now and things are about to be delegated to me - it's a good challenge but I suppose I've gotten a little lazy. I'm going to say I am walking or swimming on average daily so I'll call my goal complete!