Today I added to my list of character defects I pray for God to remove, my contolling. I am getting back into reading daily Al Anon literature because I need it and this is a sollution when wanting to control, fix, influence, rescue... isnt. So today the issue came up with mom and it's frustrating when I try to control something I don't have control over. I feel stuck when it's something I think I know better and I am just trying to help and it is not going my way. It is ego! Selfishness! Being controlling. God please remove it from me, I can't! In fact I learned this defective behavior from her! God! A friend from MA who is a pen pal had a stroke Tuesday, a friend of his let me know. I hope he is ok. I need to start taking my PMS homeopathy it's that time of month. I have done without my cold busters and now may be picking up one, and got them today finally, maybe too late. I am dealing with about a 1/3 of the income I had before for several months. I want to turn it ALL over to God. I swam at the gym last night and it is lovely, and using jacuzzi, sauna and steam room are divine.
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Dear Loved1, Control is a big issue for me too...esp when its so easy to do for others. It helps me to remind myself that I am powerless over others, that I need to give others the dignity to try for themselves, make their own decisions and experiences their own consequences (even though it can be painful). at a recent combined al-anon and aa chat meeting, one of the members said a great slogan or something related to that which really helped me. It says
I think s/he can\'t
God can
I will let him
What kind of PMS homeopathy are you taking? if you don\'t mind sharing that might help me a lot, my hormones go crazy for about 2 weeks of my cycle, and its not very pleasant....
glad you are doing those things you love to do e.g. gym, I am sure that helps you a lot :0)
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gricelda