Today I added to my list of character defects I pray for God to remove, my contolling. I am getting back into reading daily Al Anon literature because I need it and this is a sollution when wanting to control, fix, influence, rescue... isnt. So today the issue came up with mom and it's frustrating when I try to control something I don't have control over.  I feel stuck when it's something I think I know better and I am just trying to help and it is not going my way.  It is ego!  Selfishness!  Being controlling.  God please remove it from me, I can't!  In fact I learned this defective behavior from her!  God! A friend from MA who is a pen pal had a stroke Tuesday, a friend of his let me know.  I hope he is ok. I need to start taking my PMS homeopathy it's that time of month. I have done without my cold busters and now may be picking up one, and got them today finally, maybe too late.  I am dealing with about a 1/3 of the income I had before for several months. I want to turn it ALL over to God. I swam at the gym last night and it is lovely, and using jacuzzi, sauna and steam room are divine.