Today when mom scolded me for something I learned where I learned to beat myself up for mistakes. I'm dealing with shame and self loathing issues. I will never be perfect. I glued on some silly false nails. I'm going to my meetings and eating vegetarian and considering veganism. I had tiredness then too much caffeine and then insomnia for a couple days, a vicous cycle!  No caffeine today - besides it leaves me anxious sometimes.