Things are a little messy right now as far as being in a relationship with a newcomer.  There is shame because I know it is inappropriate, yet this is not enough to stop me.  There is general shyness and insecurity for having gotten intimate with someone I really don't know that well.  There are codependency issues since he has a lot of wreckage and so therefore really sort of is not an equal relationship as far as being there for eachother.  There are old issues brought up of beign intimate with someone and not fully owning my self respect / self care / self love. I know a big antidote to these tendencies in me, which go way back, are to connect / reconnect / stay connected to supportive women.  I have missed out on my womens meetings since I was working two jobs a couple months ago, and have not picked them back up. Sigh.