Interesting yesterday at support group I got to support R and try to encourage him.  I remember being new in sobriety and overwhelmed with living in my wreckage, sober.  I am proud of him. The therapist reminded me of Al Anon, and I am hoping to ask a friend how much Al Anon recovery he has because  think he'd make a good sponsor.  He is gay so the difference in gender should not be much of an issue.  At least someone to get me started on Al Anon steps. I come to work and it is a little overwhelming at times. I just realized I forgot to sort of turn it over to God today.  It does make a big difference.  I am not in control. I am kind of sad the MA convention is fast approaching.  My temp job check didn't come in in case that would matter in my going.  It is late.  I don't know if I am going.  I have a hard time turning down and also taking opportunities.  Indecisiveness is one of my weaknesses. I realize to I am an abandoner.  I start with issues and friends and meetings and I disappear.  It made more sense when I realized this, how when I leave without a goodbye, this is a symptom of this.  Interesting awareness. So those are a couple of issues I need to work on. I did swim today which is exciting, to pick up a new exercise habit that helps me deal with stress, stay fit and enjoy life.