I did get a call from counselor that she is unable to fit me in her schedule at this time, but is working on it.  That was nice. I did go to Al Anon and shared.  Another lady there has her spouse in the same treatment program where R is.  Interesting.  I encouraged her to go to the group tomorrow, but she will go next week.  I am looking forward to it.  I miss him and it is hard having him away and selfish of me to expect any different, as he needs his treatment program.  I guess I'm aware it is my choice and I can't change him, if I am not happy with something I need to accept him and work on changing me, my attitude and letting go of expectations. I walked doggie and went to gym and swam a bit, it helps a lot to get moving.  It is quite warm today.  I went to part of AA and I'm glad I did.  I chose to leave early to use the gym before work.  I come here to work and I'm grateful for tool of "turning it ALL over" to God because I'm NOT in control.  I feel more frustrated than lately here today.  Gratitude.  I'm grateful I don't have to stand up all day, that I'm not expected to instruct a class, that I get an independent study math student in a few months, one of my favorite students.