It is good to be here. I see I am blocked by my work computer from entering the marijuana addiction group suddently.  Bummer.  Taking a risk coming in here at work, anyway. I got a voice mail message this morning and wished I was getting fired.  What is wrong with this picture? I think it is feelings of discontent as a result of being alcoholic.  I need to revisit my work related gratitude list.  Also after being sick and going back to work today I was not so enthusiastic. I spent a few days resting.  I got popcycles and a "Star" magazine last night - not like me to read gossip, but a good escape for some reason.  I got one last month because of an actor I have a crush on - Simon Baker. I enjoyed the clear with cloudy skies, the sunshine, the dry and windy weather, taking time to come on here, sitting through a whole meeting today, doing my swimming and yoga, and getting restful sleep in a cozy bed.  I love puppy and being able to walk, bathe and brush him. I got a call from R and a call from the VA hospital saying I can attend a group that will allow me to visit him.  He's doing pretty well.  He also tried to reach me through our mutual AA friends which was nice I guess. It feels nice to have someone care about me who I care about.  I guess he'll be moving to another sort of program I'm not sure but he'll have open visitation priviledges. I just need to get rest and feel better and I need to get some herbal immune boosters to help me get over this cold.