I haven't had the opportunity to be on this week, and it's been a difficult one!  Anyway I didn't screw things up.  Work opportunity came up and I almost sabotaged it - fears, resentments, the imperfection of it, feeling overwhelmed, not accepting God's gift for me.  Anyway we'll see!  I may get something that could become something stable, but I will have to juggle it with the last week of my math class and then a temporary seasonal position as an administrative assistant at another college I'd been looking forward to.  Overtime in January?   Need to stay in today.   Mr Now doesn't get it, continuing to ask me to do things and ignoring what I say.  I guess not saying anything is better than trying to explain it for another time.   Tomorrow I will go to an MA meeting in the big city and get to see my sponsor.  I sure need to get away and go to my home fellowship.