I'm proud of myself.  Nearly all communication between staff at work is by email.  I responded to boss about what my plans were for here and if I want more hours, that I feel the extra prep work hours go unpaid and are too many to take on a 2nd class.  She asked me last week if I'd take over a computer class that day - I've never even taken one myself, and the youth these days should be teaching me!  Anyway that took courage.  I know a job is not worth my life or serenity and this job has been majorly challenging for me.  I don't know, I know times are so tough.  I told her during the next class session I'm doing a seasonal temporary position and my availability will be limited to evenings, when they usually have me teach anyway.  So I don't know!  I'm not going above and beyond because I have boundary issues and I need to learn to care for me before I can care for others.Real interesting conversation with Sis, how similar we are in respect  to some of our shortcomings of codependency and love addiction, though she doesn't have the knowledge or addressing of the issue I do, and I was talking to her about it.  Real interesting.  A bridge to a distant relationship that is quite nice if a little disconcerting. I did some work out of Iyanla Van Zant's book on "In the meantime".  I learned so much. I want to share.  She suggests to meditate on the rhythm of your breath a few minutes, ask spirit, light and love to come in, ask the voices in your head to be quiet, ask the question and wait for the answer, then write it down and study it.  The questions she suggested and the answers I came up with... "What do I do next in my life?"Go now and forever change your mind that you will be one with light, spirit and love. "How did I get here?"You found yourself with the opportunity to make choices you have never had in your life, and you chose to make them and became unenlightened. "What choices did you make or failed to make?"You became dominating, submissive and morbid.  You became part of the problem instead of the anser.Refuse to give energy to the problem.  Identify it and get out (in relationships). "What was I trying to accomplish in making that choice?"To solve problems to heartache.  To heal heartache to past. "What I really want is..." (list these from the answers received, in 3 - 5 words. To choose enlightenment.To be in the anser.To give energy to the answer.To get out of others problems.To solve and heal heartache. This is getting clear in my INTENTION. It is a great book.