Feeling a little better. I think I have that monthly upset in my mood and this month the timing was off and I really got thrown for a loop. Writing a gratitude list helps. Going to a women's AA meeting helped a lot. Calling a sponsor and a friend and having a good cry helped. Going to the gym and sauna helped a lot. Getting on my monthly fast helps a lot (fruit, veggies and juice for a few days). I am a couple weeks behind on this and my body, mind and soul truly craves it - I feel it is detoxifying. I feel empowered at work at the school. I am doing a decent job. My attitude has improved the last day or so. I am excited to teach my first psychology class. I am totally unprepared and the holiday weekend lays ahead. A guy in class I just felt a connection to, and we started to talk. My friend last weekend who asked me to have a beer (and doesn't know I'm in recovery AA/MA) well this local hangout is where this student works, so we got to talking about a mutual friend and I am sure we have a lot more. I imagined peeking in - it is walking distance from my volunteer work on Saturday nights and I do like to see bands there or visit friends there occasionally. Yes, it would truly be good to create some new sober memories in places like that as long as my motives are pure to not reminisce the drink. I am grateful for my sobriety - for me the drink is too likely to lead to destructive behavior including other substances and addiction.