I get so much out of Al Anon, and imagined asking a woman to sponsor me, but didn't (yet).  Progress not perfection.  I get hope there that I can learn to be emotionally independent and learn to have healthier relationships and take better care of myself and stop being a doormat and a people pleaser. My counselor suggested I go through one box a month to declutter and get rid of atleast half the stuff.  One a week seemed too overwhelming.  I have to start somewhere.  I'm tired of living in clutter.  I am excited to have a plan. My ex was leaving nice messages and yesterday left none, first time in weeks.  It is hard for me as I am missing him for some strange reason, the familiarity and closeness.  The fact he deceived me just was the last straw.  I still need to stay away from our mutual meetings because I am feeling vulerable at this time.  It has been a month and a half since I've spoken to him.  I am actually relieved about that.