I find myself a little nostalgic for the ex.  He sent some nice texts like he is being nice again.  Anyway I continue to ignore him and feel some relief that he seems to be suffering less the past few days. I went to a fair with a male friend whose company I enjoy, but think he likes me more and I need to find some female friends to buddy up with.  I always tend towards friendships with males. Went on a nice hike in the mountains with my new guy I am friendly with.  It was nice.  We spent all day together.  Anyway it is kind of interesting to have someone who is largely a good influence after how detrimental my ex became. My car is getting worked on.  It did not pass 2 smog inspections and during the third it overheated so hopefully these issues are being addressed.  I am hardly working, but need to remain grateful I do have some money to deal with this at this time.  It is kind of stressful. I have missed 3 days of meetings after going daily the last month, not good for me.  I guess I needed a break from my routine and it was nice to live outside of the box and just get used to taking some time for myself.  Also feeling rather lazy in the heat, surely.  Going to a meeting and counseling today. I am absolutely overwhelmed with all my clutter I have been living with for years.  I want to get rid of 80% of it but don't know how to throw most stuff away.  I heard somewhere it has to do with not dealing well with loss, and I need to throw the stuff away and feel the loss.  It is a rather huge problem for me I am tired of dealing with.