It was really wierd, how last weekend the old close friend I visited with was very close to my ex when they were children.  Small world :) I continue to hear from him, and not respond.  My counselor is very happy I have made some progress.  So my ex has gotten into extreme tattoos and sent me a text that he is getting his face done.  It is rather distressing.  I mean, my good male friend reminds me how I need to not let his 'insanity' or 'drama' distract me from my life and owning my progress (as my conselor says). It is just hard to think of him ostrasizing himself in this way, but there is Nothing I can do about it.  It was so hard to accept I was falling for someone with extreme tattoos, having none mysef.  I know this is only his "shell" and symptomatic of other issues.  I am just glad I don't have to be involved, and trying not to let this "get" to me. I am doing my monthly 3 day fruit and veggie fast and sometimes I include very low-sugar dark chocolate.  I mean, it has all these antioxidants and stuff.  I think I overdid it this time, and had a little bread, so I am not doing it perfectly.  I tend to get a little bogged down and then feel lighter - I do think it is detoxifying. Today has been lonely for me.  I think the sugar in the chocolate is higher than that I normally buy, and leading to some "sugar low" for me.  Also, the two times I've talked to the "crush" in my life, he's said he'll call me tomorrow or the end of the week, and both times he hasn't.  I don't do well with people not keeping their word.  I picture him as a helium balloon, and me letting him go, and try to read my "Addiction to love" book and see my issues.  I guess I have some emptiness and obsessive issues. Daily AA meetings have been good for me lately.  Today I got to lead/be the first to share.  It is good for me to share of myself and be of service, and let go of my ego and let myself  be imperfect exactly as I am.  I really enjoy the big book study meeting today and reading the stories in the book and sharing on them.