Car returned fixed pretty well. '81 924 Porsche that cost $1k. I'd prayed for a mechanic that knew how to work on them. My last mechanic was far from "getting" that car. So I randomly called a place I'd been to a few years ago and they referred someone whose been working on the cars since they were new and is a 20 minute walk from home. He charged a good price and clued me in to what needed to be done. It's still far from perfect, but feels good. I feel like I don't recognize myself. I have a teaching job. I have good relations w/ my family (somewhat). I am professional. The boyfriend is out of my life (I am still so shocked at how mean he became, and cold. He's come a long way since I met him and regressed less than zero from where he was, where he'd been in his past oh well). Today I shared at AA, and mom came. She asked to come to a meeting. She needs a support network, with her sis having recently passed away, and her spilling the news today my sis may be separating (devastating for the family and her teens - just a shock). So mom came - and I was asked to lead the AA meeting! I used to fantasize about bringing mom and being able to share. I'd never brought her. It was amazing I could share my honest story with her there. I had tremendous shame and coming out to her as an addict/alcoholic 1+ year ago (after 2 years clean and sober) was one of the hardest things, something I thought I could never do. And she didn't judge. Wow. Teaching is going well, better than expected. Correcting homework took 3 hours today for one night! I get paid 2 hrs for the class and 45 mins prep work. It's closer to more than twice that, but maybe next class it will be easier. They last 5 weeks. Kids are great, straight outta high school, and we're learning college algebra together. I think I am pretty good at it, natural at math. It has been a life saver to have a job finally that doesn't give me free headspace to wonder about the ex. I think he projected a lot of bs including his disatisfaction w/ me onto me.