I am doing this nice receptionist job the last two months that ends this week.  I got so crabby yesterday, I was really impatient with people.  I felt bad.  Customer service is starting to wear on me.  I think I'm really feeling the effects of the loss and abusiveness of the relationship I kept going back to.  I mean, I have really settled for less and I have a lot of healing and growth to do.  I used to just be so dependent on him and not want him to end it, instead of seeing how harmful his treatment of me was.  I don't understand why else I am having such a hard time at work.  I am rather tired after a few weeks of working overtime, I'm sure that applies.  I went to the gym in between jobs yesterday to use the jacuzzi, sauna, cold dip, back and forth, and the sauna.  It improved my mood tremendously. I found out my part time evening job will also end this week, and I will still be called on to sub as needed if necessary.  Ok then!  I guess God is telling me I have worked enough overtime and it is time for me to do other things.  I have relief, sadness, and some fear.  I enjoy doing temporary work I guess I am feeling a little insecure about the instability of it.  I'm not surprized about the part time job being of temporary nature.  I am just sort of frustrated with the lack of communication there.  It seems everything is done by email and it's just not real effective sometimes.  I don't think it is a place I could ultimately count on because of the unpredictability of it, but I will try to remain open.  The boss is telling me I could sub for a class (instead of just in the computer lab) and I just don't know the first thing about how to go about doing that.  Not the best training in the world.  Not feeling real ambitious about it at this point.  I do have an opportunity to fill in there for someone in a few weeks if all goes well. I'm rather excited about the temporary job I have starting next week.  Third college I am working at lately.  I get to dress casual there and do administrative assistance.  I have been working there off and on for over 3 years.  It is a fun job at a college radio station where I volunteer.  I might put a temporary mouse color on my hair like red or black just to have the chance to be creative with my looks. I feel rather blah.  It has been a week since I asked him to leave me alone.  Those of you in abusive relationships know the effects can remain for some time.  I am grateful for counseling.  It will be good for me to have some down time to process things.