I enjoy my life.  I understand the man in my life, during our frequent break ups, he seems to say life w/out me sucks.  I am ok being single without him, because the problems for me between us are too wearing. I did receive a text message from him yesterday after I asked him to leave me alone, asking if I still want that and asking if I still felt how he falsely accused me the day before.  What a big misunderstanding.  So I left messages, venting and explaining.  I feel kind of bad.  I don't like keeping my phone off in fear of receiving more hostile and hurtful messages.  I have issues of him not hearing me.  His anger toward me just escalated so much.  So I said yes I do still want him to leave me alone, and no, I never like he accused said I wanted him to be with someone else.  You see he brings up sex and says he needs it, and it is very hurtful to me because this happens in the midst of him being unkind to me, and he is never accountable because he uses blame and diverting attention onto how I treat him.  I admit I could treat him a lot better.  I can't stand for abuse, though sometimes I settle for it.  So that's where I am at. I walked at lunch and it is so good for my energy level, to combat stress, to think about things, to be in nature, to get my circulation going and feel healthier and reduce pain.  I love my jacuzzi routine at the gym I did two nights in a row, it just clears my head.  My room and home has become quite messy and especially with working long hours, I am just neglecting that part of me that is so important for how I feel about myself that needs alot of attention.  I tend to have a problem with clutter.   www.flylady.net helps a lot.Here I am at work.  I have made a friend with a coworker.  Since next week will be my last I think I will give him my email and phone to keep in touch if he wants.  Friendship is important to me.  DS has helped me alot in learning about friendship, in the balance of give and take.  Before sobriety my friendships weren't very balanced in equal give and take.  I am more aware of that now and it means a lot I have learned that here.  I mean if I want to be a friend I have to give and not just take, and vice versa.