I've been emotionally abused yestereday by the man in my life. It escalated so much so fast. I was accused of false things and had my words twisted and have been raged at. I asked him to leave me alone. It is hard to not want to defend myself. I feel like the wind has been knocked out of me today. I am grateful for my counseling appointment and for being able to come here to DS. I am at work. I want to cry. It hurts so much to invest my life into this person and be treated like I have ill intentions. Each time I go back the relationship hits a new low. This is the lowest. It is up to me to keep my limit when I asked him to leave me alone and told him I won't be returning his calls. Well it rains today and I sit at work answering the phones, the operator of a large community college. I watch "Hell's Kitchen" online, I am grateful for online TV. It is ok if I have to get up and cry today.
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***big hugs***
It sucks when the ones we love the most lash out at us so badly. :( If you need to cry today, let it go.
***big hugs***
I want to reach out and hug you. My heart aches for you. As a woman you are so caring and wonderful and so you want to give the man you love so much of yourself because it feels right, it feels good. I can tell you the abuse only seems to get worse, that\'s also what I read on the abuse boards. You\'re good and hardworking at everything! You\'re here, you\'re going to do great. Loves, xoxo chels
of course its ok if u need to get up and cry!! reading how this man treats u, completely INFURIATES me!!! u dont need this in ur life. (im sure u kno that) it is up 2 YOU and YOU alone to CLOSE this chapter, so to speak, in ur life. u have come way to far to allow this man or ne other man to cause u UNNESSECARY grief and pain! u are jsut beginning to find out how wonderful life in sobriety can truely be. why not give urself the opportunity to see how wonderful life can be w/out added pain in ur life that u can eliminate. i pray that u will see, u do NOT deserve this treatment and that there are sooooo many other GOOD men out there, that would gladly be apart of life and add happiness and joy to it. and NOT take these things AWAY from it. u can do this, even if u dont know it yet. TRUST ME, u can.
i hope the above didnt come off to \"harsh\". i only want whats BEST for u. and altho it may not be MY place to say these things, i only say them because it is the TRUETH. and we both know that the TRUETH is the only way for us to succeed in this life of sobriety! luv u.....
Thanks for the feedback. I am feeling better and today is going pretty well. As long as I don\'t try to \"fix\" the broken relationship or our hurt feelings and end up gettin hurt worse, I am on my way (this is hard for me to understand but that\'s the way it is. No pretty closure here.)
I am hoping to go swim and use jacuzzi at gym tonight instead of take a walk today.
HUG to you all.
You are an inspiration Loved1 you are doing everything right and life is good for you and getting better.I like watching Hells Kitchen or anything that foul mouth is in lol.
Respect.
Tom
I\'m so sorry this happened to you. You sound so gentle. It makes me so sad. Is your significant other bp? lol It just sounds so much like my bipolar husband! You have no idea!! It sucks! But I\'m glad you are doing so much healing! It\'s so inspirational!!!!! Jamie