I took a break in the car at lunch and meditated, just paid attention to my breathing.  It is so cleansing, healing, relaxing and rejuvinating. I am seeing how the man in my life is just not nice sometimes, and how I remain in the conversation when it is not healthy for me.  I continue to let him in and every little thing I seem to share with him and expose just feels unsafe, and I know I share less and less w/ him as time goes on.  It is just exhausting. I need to do some writing to let go of a resentment and call my sponsor.  With new work schedule I went to an AA meeting I haven't been to very much.  There were two meetings at once, and I chose the small room, my gut was questioning which room, and I went with my first instinct.  Thank God.  So who do I hear through the thin walls but the man in my life's ex.  It seems the problems I have with her as I get to know what kind of person she is (they share kids) are letting me see she is not someone safe for me.  I am grateful now I chose the different room from her, was disappointed to learn she comes to where I am planning to go, and just feeling all that self comparison and anger at how she has treated me disrespectfully, though not directly.  I mean she is not all bad.  I deal with jealousy.  I tend to put myself in these situations and feel resentful because they are not healthy for me.  So it is up to me to do some writing and discover what is it about me that is feeling resentful, and let this go.  It has been so hard for me to deal with her.  And of course God put me right where I have to deal with her (even indirectly).  I have something called a God Letter, and it is an awesome tool for dealing with fears and resentments.  I sure need to write one.  (I give example below)  Adjusting to new bunny pet, mom wants to keep her and thinks it is good for our doggie to have a pet, too.  Will plan to get her a bigger cage ASAP.  Mom says it's up to me.   New job is going well, feeling more comfortable and learning more.  Today will be the real test being there alone when it is going to be busier than I am used to.                             GOD LETTER For resentment or fear, write it out, call sponsor or someone to read it to them and then tear into bits of confetti and give to God.   Dear Loving God, Please speak to me through this (pen).  Give me knowledge and understanding of myself and your will.  I have these problems.  I cannot handle them myself and I need your help.  I fear _ because _ (what’s happening inside me).  I resent _ because _ (how it relates to me).  Please take away these fears and resentments and turn them into usefulness to you and to others.  Loving God I am grateful for _ .  I ask for total faith in your divine plan for me today, asking only for knowledge of your will and the willingness, strength and courage to carry that out.Love your child, (inner child)