Let's see if I can put things in perspective. Finding gratitude for my challenges is a great tool. Overworked this week. Gripe- Mon - Thurs I start at 7:30am, work 8 hours, drive 15 mins to other job for 5+ more hours until 10pm (except Tues I got to have a few hour break in between jobs for a meeting where I was called on to share ((YAY)) and counseling session ((YAY)).Plus- This is temporary for this week. I am making money I need. I like the jobs and have free time during them. I am saving money in the meantime bringing meals from home. Gripe - Relationship frustration, stress, dealing with grief and loss as I see it for what it is, not what I want it to be. Tug of war with him, not quite where I'd like to be as far as letting go, moving on.Plus- Awareness is the first step to change. Gripe - I am stuck in denial or confusion sometimes and I stay put. Plus- I can be aware (though painful) I have some power to do something about it. Besides, loss leaves me open to something new/better. Even being aware I'm still not ready to completely let go yet is ok. Gripe - I mean I've told him how I feel, that I don't see a future for us. When he acts as if it doesn't matter, like it was just a bad day, I could go along. Plus- I see I need work to do with boundaries, assertiveness, self esteem, support system and codependency/love addiction. Gripe - Need for assertiveness in job situation. Dealing with new bosses, new work at part time job at night. I am realizing the hours may fluctuate eventually. I have a job opportunity for seasonal temporary work I enjoy coming up after I am done with this temporary job during the day. I am nervous about an unpredictable schedule for my new part time job that could interrupt temporary work commitments. I think I need to step up and tell new boss I have an opportunity and just let myself take the opportunity I want and not let fear keep me from pursuing my job interests.Now if that is not stressful... maybe you can see how my brain can drive me crazy!Plus- Let go Let God! I am ok! I will not fall off the face of the earth if things don't go "perfectly." Gripe- I love this temporary day job. It will be over maybe as soon as about 1 week.Plus- I will always have the memory with me. Ok I guess that is good for now. SIGH. Trying to keep things in perspective here.
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there is absolutely no rush to make any decision. when the time is right to act, the way is clear. before then we are just trying to decide to relieve pain....
be patient! xo
Great idea doing the prespective thing, it helps to see things more clearly especially when it is all so full on in your head.
Yeah Let go - Let god, I\'ll say, its amazing what comes of doing that. Just letting yourself BE, wow! can be VERY rewarding. I think your doing great, u are doing the staring it all in the face. Good on you! X
I like the way you wrote this journal. I gained some insight into my work
situation from reading your journal. I understand what you mean about
\"keeping your perception - finding the gratitude in your challenges\".
Good luck with everything.
with friendship, Ida.
That is a wonderful attitude. Keep those positive thoughts flowing. I love new and different experiences. It\'s good when we can keep learning and growing. Best wishes to you and have a great weekend!
Isn\'t it wonderful to completely be aware of the positive and negatives in your life right now? With that awareness, you can be in touch with how you are feeling and allow yourself to be human. Let go, let God...haven\'t heard that in awhile, but we all need to be reminded. (-;
It\'s good the way you have set your journal out. Your mind must be alot more clearer with your \'plus\' and \'gripe\' list. I hope you make the best decisions for yourself.