I'm in limbo with the new job and the relat.I wasn't told I was hired yet, I think I am, just waiting for her to contact me after I dropped off my transcripts yesterday.  It feels good to have a job that uses my degree (BA psych) which I have only done ONCE when I graduated ages ago (over 12 years or so).Im in limbo with relationship.  I see this pattern.  Mom has it w/ dad.  I get hurt, I seek to tell him, not only does he not take responsibility for his part he gets mad and I get hurt again.  I see this just happened two days ago and neither of us have contacted eachother since (wierd).  I did see he rang just didn't leave a message.  I am just sick of taking out my hurt feelings on him, he is having a hard enough time.  I can't change him.Thanks for the support here it means alot.I am using the gym lately for the sauna and jacuzzi, and I went to a good AA meeting and shared some experience, strength and hope.  I feel so grateful for a good meeting.I've been going to sleep early and still wanting more sleep.  I tend to need a lot of sleep.I was going through the list in my head of how this mate is not someone healthy for me.  I overlook so many negatives... I mean he is not a bad person I just know I deserve someone who knows how to respect me (he doesn't and I'm sick of putting up with it).  I am not here to teach him.One thing that is kinda bugging me is I think he still supports his ex.  I know they have kids together.  I just know she has a tight hold on him - she is in control of whether or not he sees the kids.  I don't want anything to do with it.  She has recently disrespected me and I have a choice if I want to deal with her or not.Anyway it really hurts he's ignoring me now.  He said this hurtful comment and I'd warned him I have PMS because we realized this is the time of month I get angry.  It's not because of PMS - I am still angry because of stuff between us.  Anyway his response to my hurt feelings was that I have PMS and I was assasinating him (I was simply trying to point out how what he said and how it was hurtful and why would he say that?)Anyway it hurts.  I did tell him to give me space.You know I don't hate him.  I don't want resentments towards him or his ex - I am a volunteer here.I haven't gotten into to counseling for nearly a month. I look forward to it next week.  She had to cancel lately.Maybe this will be the last breakup.