I guess I felt blessed being trained by this woman who I had things in common with, and she just left, she will be on medical leave for surgery and she hugged me goodbye, I'll cover her for a month for this temporary job, I felt like crying (the hug was nice).The last few days have been hard, missing my ex.  We had been getting chummy over the phone before his illness/possible cancer diagnosis/ and one day relapse 2 weeks ago, and he became a butt-head and I said to leave me alone, and he IS.  Yesterday I think I saw him as I drove past the Starbucks where he sits in front of, and I considered turning around. I usually avoid that street.  I'm jonesing and going through withdrawals, I do have that "love addiction" problem.  Last time I asked him to leave me alone there was a lot of anger, and this made it easier, this time not so much anger or ease.  The thing is he lies, and the trust has eroded.  I also know in some ways I just put up with so much I don't want to put up w/ anymore.  Anyway it has been really hard and the fact I didn't turn around yesterday, is amazing, and that my world is full and I'm not waiting for him, is amazing, but my phone is so quiet.  Thanks for the support here!