Well after my ex had gotten sick w/ pneumonia and they found some lesions on his lung, he had sounded so good up till then, and our last conversation he was largely incoherent.  He is a recovering addict with nearly 3 years clean and after not hearing from him for a couple days I found out from his family he apparently got high on medication he was prescribed and cold medicine (this is not good for an alcoholic/addict like we both are) anyway and he is in  a psych ward.  I asked him if he was on some meds that made him slur his words, no he said. I just figured he was having trouble with all the coughing he'd been doing, but God, I've been conned, mentally apparently he is not as well of as he seems, he is not honest.  Anyway my heart goes out to him and I do still love him and we are not together but have been emotionally getting closer and I was starting to trust and hope again and I am just in shock about this.  This could be really bad as his history with substance abuse is quite dangerous (heroin leading to prison).  And he is so popular!  I went to my old home meeting that he also attends and it hurt he seems to be more popular there than me, I mean here I am staying away to not have to see him and put the focus of the AA meeting on my ex, and I have stayed away for most of several months now, and it hurts to have people come up to me with concern for him and I feel like what about ME?? I need to let go of my Ego.  Today is my 3 year sobriety date (yay_)  Happy Valentines Day.