Well I didn't stick to my 3 day fast that day, but breakfast and lunch were just fresh juice and fruit.  It was really good for me.  I just felt I didn't need to be hard on myself and perfect, and I know I'd have felt better if I stuck to it, but I didn't, so next time maybe.  I am having much trouble with discipline.  Found myself spending time doing leisure activities all week instead of necessary job hunting, did no job search whatsoever.Cried today.  Having an especially hard time avoiding the meeting place where I met my ex, not only if he is there also just to see the croud he so blatanly just always shares about our problems and breakups and I find myself shrinking back because it is my privacy I do not choose to share about so openly, so it has been painful to run into some of those people at other meetings and know they know about our breakup even though I haven't said anything, and just being isolated from the support/gossip/him and his croud and his fanbase (he is SO popular and loved there, I am just this isolating loner shy person).  Anyway I am in too much self pity and really needing to get in touch with God and my recovery program.  Mom and dad are taking off for 2 weeks so I will have house to myself.  She hasn't said a work about me not working, unusual.  Maybe she understands and knows I received a little inheritance $ so I am ok.  She did sympathize when I got hurt/upset with Dad and said I am emotionally fragile.  It was nice to have her sympathy Funny how much happier we are at home with a new doggie added to the family (since May).  I bought him a little rain poncho so we could walk him without getting soaked, so cute! I have an old haunt I could attend tonight to see a favorite old band I used to love to see, knowing I'm sober now it is not the best idea, I have gone to these places in sobriety just not when I am feeling so vulnerable, insecure and emotional, and just not sure I'm ready to see old faces.  I wished I was more secure and it is ok I am not. I am doing some reading on the aura and chakras and relational chords and it is really helping me deal with the situation with the ex, relating it to energy patterns of relating to others based on my familial relationships.  Basically I have some energy work to do to heal this pattern of unhealthy connections.Thanks all for being here for me.