I may not be online for a while as this temp job that allows me to go online is supposed to be ending.  I am very grateful to have had this great job. (and to be able to come here every day) I need to keep taking care of me and eating and sleeping right and getting outside and getting sunshine and going to as many meetings as I can (I've neglected meetings, my normal place is no longer safe because my old boyfriend is there and I'm not feeling like it would be therapeutic to put myself in that environment), I need to get on the phone and continue with my stepwork and job search.  I like being here and the mutual support, help and reaching out, and giving away what I've learned, and learning and relating so much and connecting with people and having things in common with people. The holidays are nearly upon us and it is a stressful time and I really need to be in regular meetings and make this a priority. It is so hard to stay away from the boyfriend who abandoned me.  I feel so rejected.  I know this is a good thing because he just wasn't healthy for me, the healthy parts of us I miss and this is normal.  I haven't filled that space up with something else at this time I guess I am isolating a bit and it is lonely.  I fear I'd take him back and this is not a good place to be in. Thanks all for being here and for the mutual support.