An observation of myself to share with everyone here. When I meet women I seem to have the right things to say at the right time, but what happens if something develops? I'll tell you. If I feel that person is someone I can share my innerself with, I break down, everytime. All the confidence I wear comes off and I show how severe my emotions are. In that time I seem to say all the wrong words and do it at a decibile level that makes them uneasy. To me it's my debate voice, but to them I'm yelling. Then before you know I have an anger problem, or that's how they see it. All the while I get so worked up trying to convince them I dont have an anger problem, I make it worse. So this is my fucked up quality. This is why Relationships will not work for me. It's impossible to find someone who can handle the decibils I put out when speaking with passion.
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I do the same thing..the more excited or interested in something,I become,the louder and more rabid my speach becomes.I get locked into trying to convince someone of my point...and because they are NOT BP..all they hear is LOUD and kinda scary.I relate.
try this,my boyfreind warned me right at the beginning ,It runs in my famliy,he said, Its a ethnic thing we shoult alittle bit,get loud when we get excited or are at a famly gathering ect....then one night at dinner we got into a debate,I at first got insulted till he reminded me ,now we laugh about it
ditto!! i have exactly the same problem with men, thats why im single!
This isn\'t a good trait to use on BP girls either apparently..
I do it too... and now I have taught my four year old to because she sees me do it
I had this \"quality\" most of my life until I made a strong effort to change it. I still slip up sometimes but for the most part I am a much quieter person. Mine runs in my family too cuz half my family is bipolar. Hugs Chugger
I do it too my friend without realizing most of the time. Even when I\'m confronted with the fact that I\'m yelling, \"angry\", upset, etc. I will deny it, because to me I\'m just trying to express myself. I don\'t see the \"distortions\" for lack of a better word that others see. In that moment all that matters is what I\'m feeling and I want whoever I\'m talking to, to feel that too. My problem is that in a moment, hour, day, etc., my thoughts and feelings change, hence why I chose the word distortions.
Aw Chugger, I have the same problem, when out in public and I get excited my words become very loud. The last time this happend I was with my Mom-In-Law and she \"shushed\" me, now that really pissed me off. I am Latina and our emotions run hot and cold very quickly, My mom and sister understand me and just laugh it off. It has nothing to do with being BP, they are not and they totally get me. So you need to surround yourself with someone that will understand you and accept you for how you are. I am sending you a HUGE HUG to show you all of us here get you. XOXO - MaJoaquina.
I can get very excitable as well, though not loud as you do...lol.........I think a lot of this is the ADD, dont you? I would love to be a slowly paced person when I talk. I do hope you start to be able to manage this in some way...hugzz to you...Cathrynn X
I got ear plugs..lol!!
I either kept people at arm\'s length or stuffed things up too. Anxiety I think and plus I didn\'t know I was BP. Now I\'m in a pretty bad relationship because only the bad ones stick around after that.
i find im the opposite chuggs x
have someone record you while you are debating it...then you will hear what they hear...and maybe its not just the volume thats offensive....cud be the word vomit thats coming out!!! If I said it once...Ive said it a thousand times...lol....THERE IS POWER IN OUR WORDS....GOOD OR BAD...and its all YOUR choice....peace