yesterday I went to a frinds surprise party. There was a women there that used to be my boss. She lost her husband 12yrs ago.She asked me how I was doing since Bruce had passed. I told her I was doing good and that I finally feel like I am really healing. That I still miss Bruce but am adjusting to my new life. She said its the same way for her. She said that she still has sad moments. She said she drove by a place where they had their first picinic and it brought tears to her eyes. She said that you dont forget your loves and never really stop grieving,you just learn to live again without them. I believe that. She is doing very well, she had a tragic car accident and lost her leg and started a foundation for other amputees. She works, lives alone,enjoys her friends and family. She lives her life and enjoys it, all while grieving her husband for the last 12yrs. I told her that for me as long as I know I can still live life and enjoy life even knowing that a bad day can pop up here and there then I can and will survive this.Even if I'm doing it for a 100 more years.
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Hi Lori, I think the same thing has been happening here too. I honestly never thought it would. I haven\'t forgotten Dean or miss him any less but I think I\'m just getting around to living again - out of necessity probably. If I don\'t do all the things that need to be done, who will? And that keeps me pretty busy and not so much sitting around and wallowing as I have been for so long. I know I had to go through all of that to get to the point I am right now and it was a very rough road to travel. I wish it never would have had to be this way, life without him, but just as the rest of the world continues to turn so has mine started to turn once again and little by little I don\'t feel so stuck anymore. That\'s the key, I think, what you mentioned at the end of your journal - you must remember that the bad days can and will still pop up and since we\'ve been through them so many times before I think we\'ve gotten to the point now that we\'re better prepared to handle them and make our way through them a little easier. Love and hugs, Judi
I think Judi said it...we go through it and not get stuck in it now..Life does go on and we have to find ways to keep on walking through..Love ya, Glenda
Lori, if there is one thing I am sure of in the world (well of course, there is always God, hope and love,) but thr other is the reselience of the human spirit Peg
I too feel it is just as you describe. We have all been in that state when we can\'t ever imagine that life is going to be manageable again. I don\'t think \"time does heal\" or that we do \"move on\" as people often say but we do learn to \"carry on\" with our sadness and loss. I think we learn to enjoy what ever happiness we can find alongside the grief which I\'m sure will always be with us. It\'s not the life we planned but it is the life we have and I feel I have learned to accept that and make the best of it that I can. I\'m sure you can and you will survive this. Good luck.
You have a good outlook and you WILL survive. Those bad days do creep in; but, even those who have not experienced a great loss have a bad day from time to time, right?
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Sel