Its so funny how your emotions can run wild. Yesterday I went to a baby shower. I was so happy to go out and get together with friends. Its been a while. A friends mother, whom I havnt seen since Bruces wake asked me how I was doing. I said I was doing great and had finally beat this grief and while I'm telling her this I start crying. I felt worse for her than I did myself. I was like no really I'm fine. Then we all just started laughing. Its so weird how you can be happy and sad at the same time.