I feel so sorry for the new people on here. I feel the longer time goes by the less worldly advice I have to give. I used to think that I could help the new comers, now I feel I dont know what to say. It has been a year for me and although I feel better than I did a year ago I still dont feel great. Its still a roller coaster of emotions and some pretty sad days. I'm afraid to be honest with them and yet I dont want to lie and tell them it going to get better. Maybe it will one day but who knows when. All any of us wants is the pain to go away. And when its new and fresh you dont want to hear that people on here have been grieving 1,2 or more years. You want to know its going to stop. I know I sound very depressing and upbeat journals are what help us get through. But I'm not there right now. I'm sorry for bringing anyone down. I know sad journals are hard for me to read. I need to get out of this dark place. I hope brighter days are coming. I know they are out there somewhere. I've seen them before.