I feel better today,but now guilty.Yesterday was such a blah day and it didnt even dawn on me that it was the 9 mth.mark of Bruces death.I have a habit of changing the time in advance.Like about a mth before my birthday I said I was 46 although I was still 45.I've been saying Bruce has been gone 9 mths since the begining of Feb.I dont believe thats why I felt blah though.I think thats going to happen every once in a while for the rest of my days.And now I'm going to talk myself out of feeling guilty too.Just because I missed the date doent mean I miss him any less.Bruce would be pissed at me for feeling guilty anyway.He used to tell me that feeling guilty was a waste of energy.So thats enough of that and I'm going to shut up now.My confusion drives me crazy,I can only imagine what everybody else thinks.lol.
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YES I WAS GOING TO SAY THAT,HE WOULD HAVE WANTED YOU TO ENJOY LIFE MATE,GO MAKE HIM PROUD ,HE LIVES ON IN YOU,YOU CARRY HIM EVERY WHERE,GIRLFRIEND.........HE LOVED YOU.
Glad you feel better today. But have to say you shouldn\'t feel guilty about anything, don\'t think Bruce would want you to do that either.. He was correct in saying, \"Feeling guilty is a waste of time\".
There is so much going on in our heads and there will be plenty of times when we forget things, but it\'s nothing to feel bad about.
P.S. nobody here thinks your crazy....
Warm hugs -n- love and prayers for healing going your way...Stella
What we think is that your expressing your feelings - and you need to.
No matter what they are........and never hold back, or keep them inside of you - we have to release those thoughts & feelings when we need to.
You\'re a very strong woman - I can sense that about you - just keep doing your best - what ever that might be - you were blessed to be so loved & adored - cherish that thought.......love you.
You are no crazier than any of the rest of us here - if that is a comfort (( ))...you are in good company, my friend...my 9 month anniversary was Friday...Susan