Today I am missing Bruce so much.I keep trying to stay away from this dark place I am in right now.I know I'm going to visit here on occasion,but I feel so much better when I'm not here.Call it denial,call it what ever you want but I like it so much better when I believe I'm healing and getting on with my life.I always miss Bruce.I just can't stand the longing to have him back.I dont want to spend the rest of my life being sad all the time.It's a feeling I've never been comfortable with.Hopefully going to work this afternoon will snap me out of it.Even if i'm just hiding the pain.I've been pretty good at that.