Today I am feeling pretty sorry for myself.I feel like everybody is doing fine but me.It has  been six mths. today that Bruce passed away,and eveybody is going on with their lives.Yes I am feeling better,I'm accepting that he's gone and not coming back.But that doesnt make me miss him any less.I still need people to call me to see if I'm ok.I still need help around the house with the little projects Bruce used to do.I still need a shoulder to cry on.They may have gotten used to him being gone,but I still think of him 24-7.I still cry,I still want him here.I'm dreading the holidays but I know I have to make the best of them.I thank god my kids are older and they understand that I'm not too excited about celerbrating the holidays.Just writing my thoughts down is making me feel better.It's nice to get on the soap box once in awhile and get everything of my chest.