Rough day

Ok.  Went to the doctor.  Got a prescription for anti-depressants.I just want the pain to end.First, my wife treats me like a child.I move out, and it all magically dissapears.She's a sweet, kind, caring person, who's trying to respect my obvious mental distress.Then my best friend tells me that her life will be better without me in it - I"m not to contact her anymore.My kids'll get along fine without me - they have their mother.  And the rest of my family is very supportive of her.My best friend and I did everything together - music, acting, shopping.  Now I'm just magically not supposed to think about her when I shared at least some aspect of every part of my life with her.  And they're all the positive things in my life.  All the things that bring me joy, I shared with her.  Now in order to have joy, I have to face the loss fresh again.Hell, even new things - she was always encouraging me to eat better, to exercise, to get outside and do something physical... I can't even take up new hobbies without pain.And through it all, my wife is there.  waiting patiently for me to call.  Either like a good wife, or like a spider in her web.  I just don't know!I can't focus on work, my weight is plummeting, I can barely keep food down...I'm seeing councellors, and talking with the one person I can still count on, and now taking antidepressants.... but it just hurts so much.  I'm so alone.  And I'm waiting for the next shoe to drop - I'm sure there will be another one.