Fell

I had been having a good week, no gambling and not many thoughts of it either. Until I received my monthly comps from my online gambling. I thought i could just play them through and walk away. I was wrong, I used the small amount i had in my checking, all of it. Im depressed because I felt so strong earlier in the week. I cant believe I slipped.
 
Im trying to let it go so I can get out of the depression that follows the slip, I had a glimpse of what strength and control feels like this week and I want it back for good. Im tired of this roller coaster.