Blue
Okay... I am feeling very blue and bummed tonight. Hubby came home this afternoon after a 3200 mile run this past week. So he is understandably tired plus hurting. He went to the chiropractor and got "popped" this afternoon. We took both the girls with us. BIG MISTAKE!!!
Anyhow, on the way out of town to the chiropractor, Hubby asks me where did 7 yr old gd misplace her glasses at. Feeling very stressed and pissy, I raised my voice and said, "IDK where she lost them. She won't look for them either!" to which he replied, " You don't have to tell at me." Well let's see, I told him 2 days ago she had misplaced her glasses and I had no clue where they were! DUH!!!!
The girls ( 7 yr & 1.5 yr old) are tickled to see their "papa". The 7 yr old later in the evening throws a fit since she isnt' getting to go to the school carnival like she wanted. I had told her earlier that IF papa made it home, he would be tired and hurting and probably not want to go. She had a minor meltdown in the vehicle over not being able to go. I told her this is "PART of the reason you are not going". She has been doing this meltdown every afternoon the past couple of days.
So anyhow between the 7 yr old and hubby, I feel like I am the hired help who has no feelings and deserves no respect. Neither one of them will listen to me. *sigh*
So I stay in the vehicle while hubby & 7 yr old goes into his chiropractor appt. Baby girl (1.5yr old) and I listen to music,etc. Now this is after I thought he had made appts for BOTH of us despite my telling him I would wait a little longer. Nope....this time he decided to listen!! Whatever!!
So when he comes out, I have to use the bathroom so I ask him where he wants to go. He cant' decide so instead of going and using the chiro's bathroom, I drove over to a gas station and used theirs. Now remember, I am hurting badly and walk with two canes most of the time unless I am using my rollator.
So I get back and he still wont' give me a straight answer. So I drive over to Walmart and proceed to sit in the vehicle with baby girl (AGAIN) while the other two go inside.Why didn't I go in with them? Well it was pretty obvious he wasn't in a mood to shop for extra stuff that I could use,etc. so I just stayed put instead of arguing with him over crap. Finally almost an hour later, he comes out and tell me he has spent over $200 in there! HOLY CRAP!!! What the hell on????? Well it is all legitimate things he needed for work,etc so I will just re-figure the budget this week. I guess I didn't need that hair cut after all despite the fact my hair is making me look like the fairy off of Sesame Street!!
I know the appt and shopping aren't really what upsets me. It is the fact he talks to everyone else more then he does me. He talks to his co workers, his family, friends,etc. I mean he will get off the phone with me to talk to a friend of his. :-( So for some reason I was looking forward to having him home since this weekend I kept clear so we could spend sometime together....guess that was the wrong thing to do!
I am stuck at home all week except for the few hours I go into work at the school. I run the girls to their appts in and out of town. I have no life of my own. I have no close friends any more. I have no social life and what little I do have is due to end here in the near future. Heck I don't even go to the local grocery store during the week unless I absolutely have to because ti would mean dragging the two girls in with me. The 1.5 yr old listens but needs to be in the cart. The 7 yr old does NOT listen at all. Plus I use an electric scooter do shop with and you aren't suppose to put kids in the basket. Kind of hard to do when you don't have any help even from the 7 yr old at times. :-(
It wouldn't be so bad being stuck at home IF I didn't have the girls to take care of or run places. I could just curl up in a ball and hibernate during the week. Heck..it isn't like anyone would really miss seeing me around town! HA HA HA
I guess it is almost 1:30 am and I suppose I need to go to bed. I don't really know why it matters. It isn't like any of them care what I do or don't do as long as they get what THEY WANT! *sigh*
Yes I know this is a pity party on my part. I am just so tired of fighting that tonight I could care less about anything. If I disappeared, no one here would even notice or care for the most part.
night everyone.....here is hoping tomorrow goes better, yeah right!
Anyhow, on the way out of town to the chiropractor, Hubby asks me where did 7 yr old gd misplace her glasses at. Feeling very stressed and pissy, I raised my voice and said, "IDK where she lost them. She won't look for them either!" to which he replied, " You don't have to tell at me." Well let's see, I told him 2 days ago she had misplaced her glasses and I had no clue where they were! DUH!!!!
The girls ( 7 yr & 1.5 yr old) are tickled to see their "papa". The 7 yr old later in the evening throws a fit since she isnt' getting to go to the school carnival like she wanted. I had told her earlier that IF papa made it home, he would be tired and hurting and probably not want to go. She had a minor meltdown in the vehicle over not being able to go. I told her this is "PART of the reason you are not going". She has been doing this meltdown every afternoon the past couple of days.
So anyhow between the 7 yr old and hubby, I feel like I am the hired help who has no feelings and deserves no respect. Neither one of them will listen to me. *sigh*
So I stay in the vehicle while hubby & 7 yr old goes into his chiropractor appt. Baby girl (1.5yr old) and I listen to music,etc. Now this is after I thought he had made appts for BOTH of us despite my telling him I would wait a little longer. Nope....this time he decided to listen!! Whatever!!
So when he comes out, I have to use the bathroom so I ask him where he wants to go. He cant' decide so instead of going and using the chiro's bathroom, I drove over to a gas station and used theirs. Now remember, I am hurting badly and walk with two canes most of the time unless I am using my rollator.
So I get back and he still wont' give me a straight answer. So I drive over to Walmart and proceed to sit in the vehicle with baby girl (AGAIN) while the other two go inside.Why didn't I go in with them? Well it was pretty obvious he wasn't in a mood to shop for extra stuff that I could use,etc. so I just stayed put instead of arguing with him over crap. Finally almost an hour later, he comes out and tell me he has spent over $200 in there! HOLY CRAP!!! What the hell on????? Well it is all legitimate things he needed for work,etc so I will just re-figure the budget this week. I guess I didn't need that hair cut after all despite the fact my hair is making me look like the fairy off of Sesame Street!!
I know the appt and shopping aren't really what upsets me. It is the fact he talks to everyone else more then he does me. He talks to his co workers, his family, friends,etc. I mean he will get off the phone with me to talk to a friend of his. :-( So for some reason I was looking forward to having him home since this weekend I kept clear so we could spend sometime together....guess that was the wrong thing to do!
I am stuck at home all week except for the few hours I go into work at the school. I run the girls to their appts in and out of town. I have no life of my own. I have no close friends any more. I have no social life and what little I do have is due to end here in the near future. Heck I don't even go to the local grocery store during the week unless I absolutely have to because ti would mean dragging the two girls in with me. The 1.5 yr old listens but needs to be in the cart. The 7 yr old does NOT listen at all. Plus I use an electric scooter do shop with and you aren't suppose to put kids in the basket. Kind of hard to do when you don't have any help even from the 7 yr old at times. :-(
It wouldn't be so bad being stuck at home IF I didn't have the girls to take care of or run places. I could just curl up in a ball and hibernate during the week. Heck..it isn't like anyone would really miss seeing me around town! HA HA HA
I guess it is almost 1:30 am and I suppose I need to go to bed. I don't really know why it matters. It isn't like any of them care what I do or don't do as long as they get what THEY WANT! *sigh*
Yes I know this is a pity party on my part. I am just so tired of fighting that tonight I could care less about anything. If I disappeared, no one here would even notice or care for the most part.
night everyone.....here is hoping tomorrow goes better, yeah right!
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