I want to get back into some sort of social scene; I dropped my sister off at a halloween party and was invited in for some drinks. I feel bad when people show an interest in me and I brush them off as if I'm not interested. One of her friends had a thing for me, she seemed like a genuinely nice person- fun to be around etc. But I acted the dick and left early. How do i stop doing that?! I now only have the cat sleeping on my bed and i'll have to kick it out soon because it stinks. Feeling lonely again *sniff*
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Don\'t be too hard on yourself, you just have some sort of social anxiety coupled with depression makes you not give a damn. I can\'t even go to a party, let alone stay there for any length of time. Be proud that you can interact with people if only on a superficial level. I know lonliness too - but, I want to get well and that takes all my energy. I hope I\'m well enough one day to not be a burden to anybody and be able to conduct my self in a relationship without burning a person out with all my symptoms. You deserve happiness and I\'m sure you\'ll get it.