Feeling numb still...it's kind of wierd but then I'll get a wave of sadness wash over me & I just push it away...I wrote a post yesterday about how I feel overwhelmed lately. Today I went to a "coping class" that deals with depression & anxiety. I think that's what I'm dealing with is anxiety. I am trying to let go of him & move on but in my mid is a constant conversation of "what if's & I should have's" I am driving myself insane with it all! I know the core of my problems is self-esteem....Where do I start to build that up. I know all the theory...Ha! I teach it to a group of mentally challenged people but I cant practice what I preach. I feel like such a fraud at work....I want out of this field of work...I am feeling so burnt out!! I feel it isn't fair to my clients that my heart & my mind are not with them....I can barely cope with my own problems. I shouldn't be in charge of dealing with other people's problems. Why is it that I could deal with everything so much better when we were together? I dont understand...he really didn't help very much but it seemed that just knowing he was there for support made a difference....I dont feel that I am dealing or coping very well at all lately....I feel like crawling in a hole in the ground & hibernating until the pain, discouragement & uncertainty all stop. Unrealistic, I know but sure sounds good right now...