I feel so incredibly sad..... I have been feeling so much emotion lately & today my daughter is sick so we stayed home.I sent him an email this morning...Brendan, I know I said I wasn't going to communicate via email & texts anymore but recently I have found it increasingly difficult to talk to you because of all that has transpired between us. I just wanted you to know that I do still love you with all my heart & I do still want us to reconcile. I know that you stated you would sign divorce papers now & I am respecting that but I am still hoping deep down that as it was for me that it was only anger that led you to say that. I am working very hard on my issues now so that I can be a better person & be better in a relationship. I just want you to know this in hopes that maybe someday, you can find it in your heart to forgive & let go & see if we can build something better & stronger together. I value our marriage, I value our family, & I value both you & myself. If you still feel in the future that there is nothing left between us then I will respect that as well. I do love you....Pam Then I sent this one afew minutes later....P.S. I forgot to add that I would like it if we could start doing things together with Olivia once in awhile if you feel that would be alright in hopes that we can become just friends at the very least, for her sake. Please let me know how you feel about it...Love,Pam  He called me on his lunch....he said that he does want us to be friends & that he has offered that in the past. It was always me who pushed that away. He said that he is moving on & that he is dating that girl now. He said he doesn't offer any hope of anything between us in the future. I told him that I understand & I also told him that I do still want reconcilliation someday & that I wont give up hope but that I accept things as they are now... I just want to die! I am hurting so much......