Still feeling really down tonight. Why is this all hitting me like this again? It seems I just start feeling better then WHAM! I'm back here again...I was doing so well with not texting or Emailing but I texted him a few minutes ago & told him I was really missing him tonight. I just wanted him to know in case maybe by some miracle, he might be feeling the same way...I haven't heard from him. So now I'm depressed, miserable, missing him & hating myself for giving in!! I just wish I could be somewhere where I could scream my head off until I feel better....I cant take all this pain..It's killing me!!!!!!