I'm feeling....I dont even know what I'm feeling anymore. I dont want to feel anymore. I went to the gym tonight but I'm feeling so drug out emotionally & mentally that I only stayed for 45 minutes...on the way home, I was thinking about his latest mind game & testing to see how I would react!!  I thought if he had wanted to test me, he could've told me that he had defaulted on the loan & that my van was being repossesed or something like that but instead I feel like he poked me with a stick into the biggest gaping wound that I have...my heart. How else would anyone react? I asked myself if I could ever be with someone who could purposely hurt like that. He knew of my insecurity & he went for that instead. And how the hell do you "embellish" on "I'm dating"?  Either you have or you haven't & he said he wasn't lying, only "embellished"! Well , either he has dated or he is a liar!! Either way, I dont care. He has wounded me so badly this time......