I'm up early this morning....couldn't sleep  :( It's been a very rough couple of days. I'm hurting so much & I have been crying so much that my face looks like a blowfish! We talked Friday night & I left feeling in my heart that it is over. Then last night, he wanted to talk because he felt that even though we keep saying that it's over, we end up seeing eachother again & again. We talked about our fears & what we want & whether or not those wants are viable right now. They aren't. He feels that even though he loves me & wants to spend time with me right now, he cant give anything more so we both agree that to keep seeing eachother is only going to keep hurting me over & over. I walked away. I dont know how I will make it through the holidays....:(