Feeling pretty good the past 2 days. I read the book "The Secret" this weekend all about the power of positive thinking & being thankful for what you have. It made a huge impact on me. On the way back from my parents house on Sunday, (1 1/2 hr. drive) I began weighing the pros & cons of us reconciling in my head. I realized that the cons far out weigh the pros at this point. There has been so much damage to our relationship & to myself in the past couple of months that I honestly dont know anymore if that's what I want now. I have been so positive that I wanted him back & just completely overwhelmed by all that's happened & now I'm starting to feel a bit better again that I'm trying to put things in perspective. If he came to me now, I dont know what I would do at this point in time. It would certainly be tempting but I dont know what my decision would be now.....