Wow! I dont know what's wrong with me this week....I'm so depressed. I dont want to talk to anyone...I just want to die. I called my doctor friend tonight to see if I can get a prescription for anti-depressants. I really didn't want to do this but I feel that at this point, if I dont, I dont know.....I just cant take the pain at all anymore. Every little thing makes me think of him in some way. Every little thing triggers memories....and now I doubt half of those memories because I wonder if he was happy then...he has ruined everything in me right now..