I got angry at him again last night. I overheard him talking to our daughter about asking for a Xbox from Santa to keep at his place. I had already planned on getting both my girls a Nintendo Wii for Christmas. I was pissed so I texted him & told him that all these things need to be discussed before being mentioned to Olivia.  Then as I tucked Olivia into bed, I noticed pictures of him in her room. I had purposely left all but one picture of him with him for a reason.I have put our wedding photo in her room for her to keep but there was a baby photo of him(this one not so bad) & another small picture of him in a heart frame. We met online back in 1997 when chatlines were just starting. I was in Canada & he was in South Africa. He mailed that photo to me a couple of months after we had met. I was so in love with him by that time & I carried that picture in the little heart frame around with me everywhere. I even slept with it at night. So that photo has so much sentimental value & I felt he was extremely inconsiderate in sending it with her. Although he's so frigging insensitive he probably gave it no thought at all! Again, I texted him & explained why I would be sending it back to his place. So today I though, most people in this situation eventually try to talk civilly with eachother. It has been at least a month since we've spoken & there are other matters that need to be discussed. So I emailed him & suggested a meeting in public to talk business & about Olivia. Now I'm so nervous about going.....I want to look incredible & I dont want to lose my composure....but I'm scared I'm going to fall apart or get really defensive as I usually do...... Starting to reconsider the whole thing...:(

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at least he is willing to meet with you. my ex only requests to see our 6 month old son by me dropping him off. I refuse because he\'s threatened me saying if he took him i would have to go to court to get him back because he is his dad. & also, right now i do not want my baby around the Bitc* that he is with ...since she was like family to me...knew we were married & still pursued him not acring who she hurt!!! no way. so he hasnt seen his son. he says he wont do it my way. ...i guess because she wont have that. (dosent want him seeing me cause shes scared he\'ll come back to his family!!) so shes more important than his son & me obviously. he says he dosent want to see me.....funny thing when this allstarted he said he was so sorry, he loved me & that he didnt want to hurt me anymore & he knows if he stayed he would & he knows he\'ll never find another woman like me, i\'m a beautiful person....(so why leave?) he goes from that to this. i guess cause she\'s right there. it hurts. it would be easier if he was still saying the 1st things he said. i desperatly feel like i need to get him to say those things again & hear that he still loves me. which is stupid..obviously he dosent. i just want him to say something that shows there is still some love there. i have to hear it. :(