Really feeling down right now...... I reread all his text messages from yesterday & now I just dont know.....I try to read what he means & I just cant....I know I shouldn't be even trying.... Then I start thinking what if we do get back together? What will it be like because I cant trust him or anything he says anymore....is it even worth it? Should I just let go now?? How do I do that.....? I cant stop crying today.....I wish I could go to sleep & not wake up until there is no more pain.....
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that is how i feel !!! & i also wonder what if we get back together, & it scares me...i think that as much as i want it...if it happened, i know he would leave again or hrt me agin. & i dont think my heart can take that. he would have to come back on bended knee asking for forgivness & tell me how stupid he was & beg for his beautiful family back. so i guess i\'m still hoping for that. because i still have that tiny bit of hope even though i dont want it. & i know he\'s not coming back. he wants HER. & SHE obviously is not going anywhere. & dont i deserve someone who would never cheat on their wife & never walk out on her??