What is up with me??? I cried all the way in to work today. I have hardly shed a tear through this whole thing thinking I can't show my feelings to him or to anyone...
What? Let people see that I am weak through this? That he's gotten the best of me? Oh, the poor thing!!! Hell no!!!
But, then that can't be good, can it? I haven't yelled. I haven't fought. I have been very good and have just gone with the flow as I always do with everything in my life.
Okay, time for meds now or some goog therapy. Still trying to find a support group. I think that would be the healthiest for me right now.
Feeling a bit abandoned by my supposed support group that I thought would be there for me as I've been there for all forEVER!!!
Oh, please come join my pity party! Hahahah!
I even called my own brother who loves to go to the movies because my stbxh is taking our daughter to dinner, a move and a sleepover in our trailer. I need a distraction so I thought my dear brother would be there and go with me... Oh, no, of course not. He can't go. No, he can't leave his family. Oh, that's the busiest time to go to the movie, Miss. Well, damnit, am I supposed to wait for two days to go with you to a matinee? Don't you see I need you now?
Even my niece that lives with me has other better things to do. I DON'T TALK TO ANYONE ABOUT ALL THIS THAT I'M GOING THROUGH so it's not like I've overstepped my "help me I'm hurting needs".
I HATE BEING A GIVER!!!!! When the givers need to do the taking, there's no one to give!!!
What's up with that???
What? Let people see that I am weak through this? That he's gotten the best of me? Oh, the poor thing!!! Hell no!!!
But, then that can't be good, can it? I haven't yelled. I haven't fought. I have been very good and have just gone with the flow as I always do with everything in my life.
Okay, time for meds now or some goog therapy. Still trying to find a support group. I think that would be the healthiest for me right now.
Feeling a bit abandoned by my supposed support group that I thought would be there for me as I've been there for all forEVER!!!
Oh, please come join my pity party! Hahahah!
I even called my own brother who loves to go to the movies because my stbxh is taking our daughter to dinner, a move and a sleepover in our trailer. I need a distraction so I thought my dear brother would be there and go with me... Oh, no, of course not. He can't go. No, he can't leave his family. Oh, that's the busiest time to go to the movie, Miss. Well, damnit, am I supposed to wait for two days to go with you to a matinee? Don't you see I need you now?
Even my niece that lives with me has other better things to do. I DON'T TALK TO ANYONE ABOUT ALL THIS THAT I'M GOING THROUGH so it's not like I've overstepped my "help me I'm hurting needs".
I HATE BEING A GIVER!!!!! When the givers need to do the taking, there's no one to give!!!
What's up with that???
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I\'m in LA and would love to go to the movies with someone who understands what we are going through. If interested, let me know and I can email you at a different email address, so the whole world doesn\'t know my phone number.
Guess what I am bringing the wine (no the liquid) to the pitty party. I also make some great stuffed prawns wrapped in bacon on the barby. What the heck, its only virtual, but I am with ya. Everybody crapped out on me too. Hopefully the weekend will get better. Have the best possible ~ Larry
YAY!!!!! Donna! That would be a lot of fun!!! I will email you!
Bigfella... I\'m actually going to be having some jumbo shrimp tonight (thanks to mom, of course!). Stuffed prawns sound good!
Thanks, you two!
Hey Missy, I\'m sorry you feel so bad. Man, I know about the crying part. A few months ago I was sitting in the dentist\'s office. I realized I was going to lose it, so I went to the receptionist to tell her I had to leave. She saw how upset I was and told me to come into a back room ... where I cried! God, talk about losing it. So a month or two later when I had the actual appointment, the two women in the room were talking about THEIR ex\'s. Very supportive. It almost made me cry again. But I do wish I hadn\'t let it all out with strangers.
I\'m thinking of you girl!! Hang in there, and write to me anytime!
As for the party ... I\'m not much of a cook. Is it tacky to pass out crackers and a bottle of cheese whiz to everyone??