Trying so hard to find a support group in my area. I found one and think I will call... well, I did a few times, but ended up hanging up the phone.

Why am I nervous about it? I so want to move on and think this will only help.

I feel like I'm at such a stand still with this whole moving on thing. We've got to get some things done on the house to put it up for sale.

I feel like I'm still hanging on when I know that I don't want to!!! Why???

:: Okay, I just did it Well, I left a message. A step for me in the right direction, I think. ::

Why do I torture myself, though, is what I think I need to find out. Okay, not total torture, but semi, I guess...?

Today I IM the stbx. I was inviting him to eat dinner with us as our daughter has been asking about daddy and we started doing that from the beginning and it sort of dropped off for awhile...which I was okay with.

So I asked him and then wanted to confirm that he was picking her up after work. He said he would let me know to both. Okay, so that is fine. He said that he might have other dinner plans.

I figured that he would have made plans with some friend (we share the same). I asked if that was the case and he was so vague about it. Got a bit peeved in the IM. So, of course, I had to clarify that if he was going with friends to please let them know that I said hello.

Why does it peeve me that he is vague about it? Like he thinks I don't have a righ to know? I don't really care at all other than the fact that I wanted him to say hello for me?

Is that wrong? Am I self inflicting my own pain here? Unfortunately, we are so intertwined because of our daughter, mutural friends and family, and we are still having to pay the mortgage and bills together.

I think it will subside when there is a complete seperation, but until then, I think it's just more painful than it needs to be.

Does hypnosis work????