Well, I had a fitfull night last night and am surprisingly alert for FINALLY getting to bed about 4:30 DST (actually 3:30 old time, I guess).
Awhile before I went to bed I spoke to stbx and he's in Texas in a dive bar where all the guys are in ten gallon hats and real Texan types! Okay, his whole family is from Texas and the south so it's not that foreign to him.
Of course he's drinking so he's got that "edge" to him and he's talking to me all edgy and tough-like. Well, I know what's next.
I said to him to have fun and of course he goes into the whole yeah, if we don't get into a fight and he, of course, is one to provoke it if the opportunity is there. Hardly much comes of it, but he's still one of those and he's had his own amount of scuffles. He and his brother are a dangerous pair when out together drinking. They aren't a menace, but I hope you get what I mean.
So, this morning when I was finally able to get to sleep I have this dream. He shows up on my parent's driveway all intoxicated surrounded by about 15 guys all over the place. He's trying to get money out to buy their damn strawberries!!!! He doesn't have enough money so they go after him with bats and stuff.
My last sight of hime is on the grass with his arm in the air as someone is swinging down on him.
Okay, now I KNOW I don't want anything bad to happen to him, but I think my worry over the past many years comes out like that. I hate it!
Does anyone else have anything like this? Am I crazy?????
Awhile before I went to bed I spoke to stbx and he's in Texas in a dive bar where all the guys are in ten gallon hats and real Texan types! Okay, his whole family is from Texas and the south so it's not that foreign to him.
Of course he's drinking so he's got that "edge" to him and he's talking to me all edgy and tough-like. Well, I know what's next.
I said to him to have fun and of course he goes into the whole yeah, if we don't get into a fight and he, of course, is one to provoke it if the opportunity is there. Hardly much comes of it, but he's still one of those and he's had his own amount of scuffles. He and his brother are a dangerous pair when out together drinking. They aren't a menace, but I hope you get what I mean.
So, this morning when I was finally able to get to sleep I have this dream. He shows up on my parent's driveway all intoxicated surrounded by about 15 guys all over the place. He's trying to get money out to buy their damn strawberries!!!! He doesn't have enough money so they go after him with bats and stuff.
My last sight of hime is on the grass with his arm in the air as someone is swinging down on him.
Okay, now I KNOW I don't want anything bad to happen to him, but I think my worry over the past many years comes out like that. I hate it!
Does anyone else have anything like this? Am I crazy?????
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