Dang! Why do I feel one way one day and then another way another day????

Is there seriously something I can just take over the counter? Are there any generic happy pills that would just take the edge off?

I want to crawl in bed and just sleep... although, I'm not a sleeper so I think I would just be torturing myself lying awake(as usual) with my thoughts badgering myself. For what????? For being a good wife? For being a good mother? For keeping our finances and our home? For caring about the abusive, binge drinking partner I married 12.5 years ago?

Why am I letting him win this over me? I know he's being nice. I know he's offering and filing good child support.

I think I am anxious about how this is all going to play out in the end. Where am I going to live when we sell, if we can sell our home. What if we don't get the equity we need?

AM I OBSESSING????????? The rollercoaster hasn't stopped yet and I really want to get off!