Well, today is January 26,2007 and it's now been one week and a day and I think I'm geting angry!!! I don't know, I go back and forth so darn much: between hurt, scared, lonely/alone.
I guess just about all our mutual friends know, but no one has called to offer me support which is odd as my other half temporarily said everyone is there for me and loves me, blah, blah, blah!!!
He's the one that is the alcoholic, mental/emotional abuser, baggage carrying freak!! I shouldn't say that and I don't mean it, but it felt good. In the 18 years we've been together, I've NEVER called him a name in anger or in an argument... unlike what he's done, of course!
Geez, it's only been a week, but it seems longer. Being that he's the one that asked for the divorce, he has YET to do anything, but continue to drink a lot and go out as he pleases leaving me and my daughter at home... oh, last night he passed out in his car after the bar and came home sometime after 3:00 AM. Thank God he slept on the couch. I can't wait until we can get out from under our house and move on!!!
I feel so disrespected!!! How can he feel comfortable going out spending our joint money at the bar!!! Are we allowed to cuss here because I would really like to right about now!
I guess just about all our mutual friends know, but no one has called to offer me support which is odd as my other half temporarily said everyone is there for me and loves me, blah, blah, blah!!!
He's the one that is the alcoholic, mental/emotional abuser, baggage carrying freak!! I shouldn't say that and I don't mean it, but it felt good. In the 18 years we've been together, I've NEVER called him a name in anger or in an argument... unlike what he's done, of course!
Geez, it's only been a week, but it seems longer. Being that he's the one that asked for the divorce, he has YET to do anything, but continue to drink a lot and go out as he pleases leaving me and my daughter at home... oh, last night he passed out in his car after the bar and came home sometime after 3:00 AM. Thank God he slept on the couch. I can't wait until we can get out from under our house and move on!!!
I feel so disrespected!!! How can he feel comfortable going out spending our joint money at the bar!!! Are we allowed to cuss here because I would really like to right about now!
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It\'s okay to get angry, its part of healing. I know i\'m alot younger than you but i have seen so much in my young life, and it gets better. If it helps think of all the hurt he has caused you and that you are better off without him! But don\'t dwell, it will lead you down a road you don\'t even need to see. You are a special and intellictual(?) woman. There are so many men who will truly love,respect and value you for the person you are. Stay positive!!
Your words are so uplifting!!!! I haven\'t even been back to read my own journal and I found this. Thank you so much! Everyday is just one more stepping stone in hopefully the right direction. I just hope it continues that way.